anger

what do i have to do
to make you realize how badly
you're hurting me?
or how many times
you've broken my heart?
i would love to slap you
across the face
or scream at you until
my throat refuses
to let one more sound
escape from the confines of my mind.
i hate this feeling
i actually can say
that i hate you for doing this to me
and i hate myself even more
for letting you.
i always thought of myself
as being strong-willed
i now know my one weakness- you.

4/4/99