be still

if i admitted my feelings today
would you hold me close
when day turns to night?
or would you leave me
to fend off the darkness alone
i can't bring myself
to tell you
how deep these feelings still run
in my heart
my ever-hopeful heart
beating like mad in my chest
can you feel it beating for you?
can you see how desperately
it yearns for your love?
can you see how much i love you
but wish to forget you?
be still my beating heart
for these feelings are all in vain

9/5/00