false emotion

i'm stuck
i don't know which way to go
i thought i'd be happy with you
but things are not as i expected them to be
(like anything ever is)
the one i rejected
(without giving a chance)
is suddenly in the middle of my life
and tilting my world
on its side
i want to see how things would be
with him
but i don't want to lose you
i doubt that i could ever could ever love him
as i love you
i don't care if it scares you
it's the truth
and i'm going to say it
you lied to me
telling me that you loved me too
your emotions were false
your 'love' was only mistaken
all i ask is that you treat me
as i know i deserve to be treated.

1/20/99