a glass-bottomed pool

am i that shallow
a glass bottomed pool
that everyone can see through
am i living a lie
fooling my heart
on a daily basis
to sustain my fading sanity
another day
flying past me
at a pace slower than eternity
all i have to keep my company
is that pain, hate, love, and confusion
but they blend together
meshing into one emotion
covering me, forcing me to thrash my way
back into the conscious world
where all i can do
is pretend life's peachy, and love never hurts
so i sit, in my bleak existance
pondering my position
do i move on
or stay where i am...
a glass bottomed pool.