hope

the hope that i had held
so gently in the palm of my hand
has disappeared
it was the only thing holding the pieces
of my torn and tattered heart together
and now that it's gone
i feel the threads unraveling
the tears bubbling behind my eyes
and the pain swells inside me
as i take my last breaths
every event of my life flashes
through my mind
and as i feel the last tear
side down my face
i slip into unconsciousness
never to feel this pain again...

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