out of my life

i have pushed you out of my life
for the last time
i'm glad you are gone
yet i miss you so much that my heart aches
i know that your return would bring me pain
but to have you for just one night
for just one last night
would be so wonderful
to feel your arms around me
to know that you are near
it is all i can ask for
since i now know that you
can't love me
i know i can't force you
your will is too strong
you don't give in to my demands
i wish, just once, if even for a short time
you would love me as i love you
but i know you cannot, and you will not
so i will spend another night
craving conversation
wanting your words
waiting for you.

6/11/00